I GET TO SEE MY DAD EARLY! I leave on a plane for home at 7a.m. tomorrow and get there about 830 which gives me an Entire day to see him- it's a surprise, so keep it on the down-low ;) It's one way, so I'm still driving back up with my roommates.
However; like I hinted at there is a very ugly side to this. My roommates are furious with me. I was meant to ride down with them, thus splitting gas. The $ isn't an issue, I was going to give it to them anyway since I backed out of the plan- that's just a common decency thing. But apparently the only reason their father (they're brother and sister) was coming up in the first place and they didn't look for flights home was because they thought that, if they didn't drive, I wouldn't be able to afford to go home for Thanksgiving.
That may or may not have been the case; either way, I emphasized to them initially to Not change or make plans with me in mind as life has been known to change dramatically. Though I said this, they are really caring people and, apparently, made the decision Solely for my benefit. Also, I asked if it would be alright to book a flight and only ride one way with them before I booked the plane ticket- the answer was 'sure, go see your dad.' They are also now saying that their father 'has trouble driving and swerves uncontrollably' so it's dangerous; making me feel doubly guilty.
I really care about this family and would Never do anything to put them out in any way, and Certainly not to put anyone in danger! They've been great friends for a long time and have pulled through for me when I was going through an incredibly traumatic roommate situation earlier this quarter and needed to move off campus, taking it upon themselves to take me in early. However, now I am not being spoken to or looked at. I don't know what to do. While I guess I understand where they are coming from, I did everything in my power to make sure that I was making a good decision. I did not realize that my action would hurt or really even affect them; but apparently I've inadvertantly really caused their family pain. It's been Really tense which has affected not only my mood/perception of myself, but my food choices.
Hence the lack of posting. I was just so lost that I didn't really know how to articulate it.
Thanks for accepting me back into the fold! There are definitely some pictures worth seeing that will be spread throughout later posts, but right now I'm at the computer lab.
Hope everyone is getting ready for a relaxing thanksgiving and/or just a calm happy day! You guys are amazing ;)
